one more day....

one more day till my liberation....one more day till my independence....one more day till my imprisonment.

7 years.......norah jones

Spinning, laughing, dancing to
Her favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
Is all alone

Eyes wide open
Always hoping for the sun
And she'll sing her song to anyone
That comes along

Fragile as a leaf in autumn
Just fallin' to the ground
Without a sound

Crooked little smile on her face
Tells a tale of grace
That's all her own

Spinning, laughing, dancing to her
Favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
And she's all alone

nothing but monkey business

so i think that for the first time in my life i understand the phrase, "working for the clock". never in my life have i had a job where so much of your mind is occupied by the time.  i'm not saying that i have a job that is completely dictated by time management......no no no far from it.  rather i'm saying that my new job is factory work.  and i have never in my life been in an environment that seems so reminiscent of a cattle farm, managed not by a farm hand..........but by a mechanical time clock!   it's amazing to just watch the other employees.  they check the clock every five minutes to see how long to lunch:.......2 hrs.....1 1/2 hrs......1 hr.....10 minutes.   the check the clock to see how long till the shift is over....for when to clock in.....when to clock out.  and then, when  the clock finally gives permission to leave, it's like someone's holding a cattle prod to our butts as we RUN for the door.  the past two days have opened my eyes.  i don't want to live for my job. it feels like all i do is sleep and work.  because i work the afternoon shift i don't have time for my friends, i don't have time for family.....i can't imagine ever making this a career.  i've once heard it said that, and i quote: "a monkey could do this job!".  and it is so true.  i don't think that there is really anything more intellectually demeaning than factory work.  we are being paid to do what in other  parts of the country machines are doing.  machines without a brain, without feelings, and without pride.  yet we are expected to fulfill the job requirements with just as much speed and efficiency as it.  i've always been told that working in a factory would make me thankful for my education, and i thought that was probably just a bunch of malarky.....but it really is true.  just as corny and expected as it is.....working in a factory truly has made me thankful for the brief amount of education that i have so far been privileged enough to take on.  i will say this though........i think that those who choose to make factory life their career, really do deserve a lot of credit.  it takes a strong demeanor and a strong back to do something like that......a strength that i don't know that i can keep for much longer.

mmmmmm, warm road apple pie

HOLY CRAP IT'S TUESDAY!

ultra strength endurance for ultra strength B.O.

things are going......nice and slow just the way i like it!  i think that sometimes is wish that i could just fast forward my life....skip all of this boring mundane crap that i currently find myself struggling to stay afloat in.......hmmm i wonder if you can float in crap......to just skip ahead and leave it all behind.  to get on with the things that i want to do rather than just enduring it. but i suppose that i learn more things by enduring than i would through fast-forwarding.  oh well until the day that they invent the technology or the wishing dust like in 13 going on 30...i'll just endure.  i think that's what i'm suppose to do anyway. besides i don't really know what the carp i'm blubbering about. things aren't so bad, perhaps a little boring, but not bad.   i just need to get the things done taht need to be done........oh on a happier note:  I went to the doctor and got medicine for my ear ache!  now don't you just feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off of your shoulders?  it's still on my ear though...but fear not hopefully after 10 drops a day for 7 days i will be able to hear normally again!  yay for doctor's!

tangles

i had my hair cut today.....i don't think that there is anything greater than getting 3 inches wamped off of your head in the middle of the summer.  i feel like a whole new person.  i wonder why i find so much excitement in a new hair cut.  i guess i really truly do live a simple life....but you know what i like it!  i don't care what society says about needing to be constantly busy, or it's extreme fascination with continuely being on the move or progressing in life.  i like to sit down and be bored.  i like be entertained by nothing but a dog and the company of a good friend.  i like that i live in a small town where the cops can have enough time to look for lost dogs, and even give a crap about it!  i like the fact that tonight i'm going to visit with friends.....spend no money......not gain any social recognition or achievement.....and still some how be a better person for it. i think that instead of society be continually obsessed with where we are going and where we have been, it should take a closer look at where it is; who it is comprised of; and what makes us so special.  do you know the 6 smiles of your closest friend? or are you to busy in life that the details become a blurr and true relationships become nothing but an inconvenience?  sometimes i think that i don't pay enough attention to the details, or that i don't live a simple life.....and then something happens.....then i get a hair cut and remember how truly satisfying it is to be completely content with the fact that the most exciting thing right now is a breeze on my neck and friends by my side.

grrrr!

i just typed an amazingly long and complicated blog entitled 'simplicity...simplicity...simplicity!' ....but it deleated it. so you get this instead!

back again.....but ready for more!

what an AMAZING summer! i think that this summer has been so much more than i ever expected. my girls were absolutely amazing and i feel such a tug for jr. highers, like i never knew possible. i learned so much about my own strengths and weakness from every camper that passed through Michindoh......in other words it was amazing. here are a few highlights from this summer:

* the magic ant from planet zoloft.
* Sandra Manilla.....I mean Vanilla!
* if forest falls out of a tree, will anyone hear?
* SOMBRERO!
* now i know what poop feels like!
* did you know that escargot is snail?!
* did you know that a magnum is a gun?
* FARSE!
* my right butt cheek is separated form my left by a crack
* i feel like a baked potato!
* if AFLAC is a sea monkey, i'll be her baby sea monkey!
* HI HO HI HO it's off to dinner we go, with Mother Goose and a Sea Monkey....HI HO HI HO HI HO HI HO.......
* does Hitchcock have brain problems or is that just the way she is?
* i like to jump on my bosom!
* i feel like a marshmallow!
* HA! HA! You got served!
* your face got served!.....your mom's face got served!
* RUN! Core Staff is coming!
* Romans 16:19 says! Romans 16:19 says!
* AAHHH it burns! IT BURNS!
* there's no flippy thing!
* Senor Ted Kazinski the Postal employee!
* "Excuse me, do you know what a mail box is?"
* Her royal highness Princess FoFo!
* beaner shark do do dootdo do do.....
* let's throw Jesus out the window.....the window, the window, the second story window...
P.S......BTW...JK JK....LOL!

C-razyness!

i can hardly believe that it is June already. and not only is it june, but it is june eleventh! crazy! it just seems like this past month has flown by! i'm not usually a big fan of day to day stuff on blogs, but in this case i think that it is called for! so i have technically been here at michindoh for nearly a month now. some how i survived my two weeks of outdoor ed as a cabin leader and a teacher. i don't know if my campers learned anything from me while they were here, but i sure learned a lot about them.

after OE had finished i went on a little road trip with sandra, or should i say Saca.... and it was completely amazing! we went to PA, a first for me, had Jr. mints, also another first. and had sunday dinner from KFC, and yet again a first. Even though we were in the car for hours and we were actually only in PA for maybe an hour.....it was definitely the best road trip so far, and i'm so glad that i went.

so that pretty much brings me up to date. i'm back at michindoh and busy with staff training...and completely excited about the kids coming! i'm so gald that i came back again this year. The staff is amazing and i know that God is going to work in extrodinary ways this summer.

oh......on another note.....i found out that i will not be able to work maintence after camp is over, so as of July 3rd, i am unemployed and basically homeless. so if you know of any camps who are hiring counselors for the end of the summer or if you just want to give me some money.....let me know. ditto_that@hotmail.com

I can't believe that this semester is drawing to a close. It seems like just days ago that I was unloading my my car and moving into a room that hadn't been lived in for weeks. Like just yesterday that I was starting my first day of classes. And now it's over. My (first semester) of my sophomore year is over. I've learned a little, I've lived a little, I've loved a little, and I've lost a little. All in All I think that this has been an experience un like one that I will ever have again.

I experienced the Joy and Frustration of working with the Ladies in Financial aid. I took a peak into the mind of Dr. Woodruff--and ran for the hills screaming. I have started and renewed friendships that will hopefully continue to grow and prosper. I've argued with Jesse Brown over Forester Village more times than I would like to admit. I've studied lots, and studied not quite enough. I've been an el-ed major, a youth ministries major, a YM and Recreation management DOUBLE major, and finally just a plain old Rec Management major (not all in one semester but pretty close).

Who knows what this summer will fully hold...I just know that I will get to minister to kids, to play with them, and to love them. However God chooses to unfold this summer will be just as exciting of an adventure as the last twelve months have.

Next year I'm hoping and praying for a little more stability, a little more assurance, a LOT more organization, and a little more focus. Well I doubt that I'll be adding anything to this for a very LONG time.....So in the mean time, as my dad always says......"Grow in Grace".

~Jamie~

I can't believe that this semester is drawing to a close. It seems like just days ago that I was unloading my my car and moving into a room that hadn't been lived in for weeks. Like just yesterday that I was starting my first day of classes. And now it's over. My (first semester) of my sophomore year is over. I've learned a little, I've lived a little, I've loved a little, and I've lost a little. All in All I think that this has been an experience un like one that I will ever have again.

I experienced the Joy and Frustration of working with the Ladies in Financial aid. I took a peak into the mind of Dr. Woodruff--and ran for the hills screaming. I have started and renewed friendships that will hopefully continue to grow and prosper. I've argued with Jesse Brown over Forester Village more times than I would like to admit. I've studied lots, and studied not quite enough. I've been an el-ed major, a youth ministries major, a YM and Recreation management DOUBLE major, and finally just a plain old Rec Management major (not all in one semester but pretty close).

Who knows what this summer will fully hold...I just know that I will get to minister to kids, to play with them, and to love them. However God chooses to unfold this summer will be just as exciting of an adventure as the last twelve months have.

Next year I'm hoping and praying for a little more stability, a little more assurance, a LOT more organization, and a little more focus. Well I doubt that I'll be adding anything to this for a very LONG time.....So in the mean time, as my dad always says......"Grow in Grace".

~Jamie~

I just BS'ed my way through three excruciating essays, with the hopes that the professor would take pitty on my poor damned soul, and give me a few undeserved points. I'm so thankful that class is over with!
(oh! and FYI, my poor soul is not really damned.....actually it's heaven bound!)

Screw it....Screw it all!`

"at this point....there is no point."

"no point in steering now."

"i'm going to fail.....i accept it, you should too."

"comphrehensive exams can go to hell."

"where Philosophy will be the ultimate torture."

"i can't do any better than i've already done.....but i can do worse."

news--good or bad...you decide

had an email from dad yesterday....good news....he signed the form i needed for the financial aid people....perhaps i will becoming back next year.....at least i hope so.....i had something else to say, but i just forgot it....a kid from my high school committed suicide on friday, so if you think of it--pray for unity in the schools....and that this can be used to further the Kingdom......something else...what was it?....hmmm...oh well, must not have been too important. nite all!--wait i remember! my aunt is having an auction....and i have the opportunity to purchase some much needed furniture for hopefully reasonable prices.....yeah for second hand furniture!

highlights from this weekend:

-Stitch: "Did you know that a magnum is also a gun?"
-Seeing Saca-J and Parkay and Zippo and Thriller and Uno and.......
-Meeting new people!......there were even a couple of HCer's!
-playing volleyball with stitch (who knew that "EEK" could be so funny?!)
-Stitch hitting HERSELF in the face with the volleyball......followed by Trigger hitting himself in the knee with the volleyball(it must run in the family!)......and then of course pelting Vanessa in the face!
-Beating their team 15-0; 15-2; 15-11.....GO US!
-"It's been genetically proven that if your parents can't have kids you most likely wont either"......that's right another stitch moment was close at hand! (are we seeing a pattern here?)
-The cynical "straw ride" with Magnum, Shooter, and Saca-J.....and everyone else
-Talking with Saca until 3 in the am
-FREE pizza! Yeah baby!
-Playing Apples to Apples....oh Cleaver!
-Playing endless games of knock out...
-Scoops remote controlled pop machine....
-Reminiscing!
-Just plain being at Michindoh!

I'm so excited for this summer!

Tu cara mira como un grano giganta

i like hooded sweatshirts a lot.....probably more than i should.

Another cut and paste from my Xanga site...

FRIDAY!

i'm so excited that it is finally Thursday....all week my internal calander has been off, but it's made for a very interesting week! Tomorrow is friday...and can i just say that i'm exicted? no? well too bad! I'm excited! not only will i get to take another exam early...but i'm also going to the Michindoh Staff Retreat! I'm going to take Vanessa up with me (from The WU (that's indiana weslyian university for those of you who were wondering!)..).....I've never met her before, but it'll be fun to get to know her before staff training in a few weeks. I'm really excited too see all of my camp "buddies" from last summer.....It'll be really different without Capt., and Oops, and Klondike there this year.....but I'm sure that Scoop and Birdie will do an amazing job....not to mention the fact that the other core counselors for this summer are amazing people......I just can't wait to see what God has in store for us this summer! I really hope Zipps and Timber will be there tomorrow, i really miss them.....we really should have mad a better effort to get together this semester....oh well. i guess it's like they say.....hind sight is 20/20. So i just realized that any one who is not educated about Michindoh, probably thinks i'm crazy.......these arent' imaginary people i'm talking about....they're camp names....i have one too....it's Ditto, if you want to know why i'll tell you......i also just realized that i use these .........'s alot.....hmmm....i wonder what that's all about. I'm pretty sure that this is the most random entry that i have ever made....well actually maybe not, but i'm just really excited so i wanted to put it on paper...or rather screen! I hope that all of my fans have an amazing day! it's so gorgeous outside~85 degrees. remind me why i'm sitting inside in the AC wearing a sweatshirt? You don't know? well neither do i! maybe i'll go outsid now......ok I'm done. That's all folks. there's no more to be seen......why are you still reading this? why am is till typing this? that's it.....this is the end.....hey it's like that matthew west song. what's it called? oh yeah, the end......that's because this is the end....really now stop reading! I MEAN IT! leave....ok i'm outty!



haha bet you thought i was serious......well that's because i am serious......bye!

a reiteration.....

there's nothing better than kids on a rope!

Unending Song!

have you ever really wanted to blog....and then you finally sit down to do so.......and then experience "bloggers block"? yep definitely experiencing it now....i just thought i'd let you know that!

AAAAAHHHHH!

this evening i experienced one of my first, "very nearly a panic attack" panic attack. and can i just tell you.....it was not fun! >:o(