a poem

happy freakin day...i'm outta here next may!

down hill

6 weeks left. sounds so completely strange. i can't believe that this year is almost over. advising is this week. registration next. craziness. 6 weeks and then maybe only two semesters instead of three, and then i'm done. done with college. a college grad. strange. i feel like i'm still a freshman. only i don't feel like a freshman at all. i sort of feel like i've wasted this experience called college, just because i don't do normal college things. weird. crap. gotta type a paper. even though i've been at this thing for three years, for some reason i still resist the need to do homework. i should definitely stop that if i'm going to graduate a semester early. next year will be crazy. i will work and i will study and i will sleep. and that will be all. blah. but i'll graduate. and maybe, hopefully get a job somewhere that i like, doing what i want. that's the goal right? to be marketable? well...here's to marketability!

no work for six days!!!!!

another day over...well techinically i suppose, but i don't actually plan on sleeping for a while. i finally get to go home tomorrow, and i'm looking forward to it....that's a surprise. it feels like spring break is finally starting! i'm pretty excited about this weekend actually...getting my hair cut and re-colored on thursday...that's always fun. and i'm supposed to meet my big bro in toledo for dinner. one last dinner before he moves to vegas on friday. even though i don't get to see him much now, i'm really going to miss him when he's all of the way across the country, instead of just across the state line! i get to hang out with em this weekend too! i don't see her near enough...makes me kind of sad that we're going in such completly different directions, but that's ok...at least i know where to find her and lee! alright, i suppose i should go finish cleaning the apartment...i only started it on sunday...i think i've lost all motivation. maybe i'll get a second wind sometime tonight...that usually happens around 2 or so....that would be amazing, then i could be like a super cleaning tornado. i guess for now i'll just have to settle for being a sloth...that's always fun!

ah...spring break!

although i wouldn't like to admit it, this break has been relatively relaxing...and the apartment is starting to look squeaky clean! i think that everyone should spend four days by themselves, you'll discover just how creative you can be! i think i have just enough time to squeeze in another movie before i go to work today...hmmm what shall it be. i'm sort of in the mood for eulogy, but i watched that yesterday....maybe garden state that always makes me happy....or amelie.... or mambo italiano...or one of the other two hundered movies we have....hmm...decisions, decisions!

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i think i might be a bitch...oh wait i can't say that, can i? shit...now i'm going to hell.

mwhahahaha!

is it bad that i'm gambling on campus?...and what have i bet on?....A RING DOWN!...how sad is that. that we have come to the point where we can practically pick who the newly engaged college student is...and what did we bet? a $10 CD...here's hopin for maroon 5!

i'm loving it!

...this weather that is.

i got a beautiful feeling, everythings going my way...

i started off the day in a good mood. a yay-its-saturday-and-i-don't-have-to-work-or-do-anything-and-my-roommates-are-gone-so-i-could-run-around-in-my-underwear-or-a-beaver-costume-and-no-one-would-notice sort of mood.

it was then down graded to an eh mood.

and has just recently bottomed out at a ah crap sort of mood. a ah-crap-a-big-semi-just-hit-me-in-the-face-and-then-i-turned-around-to-get-out-of-the-way-and-a-sea-gull-craped-on-my-head-and-then-in-a-bout-of-anger-i-decided-to-shoot-the-sea-gull-which-somehow-morphed-into-a-small-child-and-now-i-must-spend-the-rest-of-my-life-in-jail sort of mood.

sadness.

its almost over!!!

such a long freaking week. two exams and a paper. not to mention classes and working till 7:30 so far every night this week. i'm completely exhausted! i think that i just might go to bed...BEFORE 9:30!!!!!

AMAZING

yeah i think that's a pretty good way to describe this weekend. although i had to get up like super early on saturday (we're talking 4:45 am here!), it was well worth it. i think i'm even more excited for camp to start now that i have met a few more of the staff members. they're all so great. i don't think that i have ever been with a group of new people, that i have felt so instantly accepted. that was a very delightful surprise. i was also delightfully surprised to discover that the challenge course at PVM was very nearly identical to the one at michindoh. it was nice to already have a leg up on the training. i was also trained on the zip line. i think that may have possibly been the most frightening thing that i have ever done. i am absolutely horrified of heights. but thanks to matt, i was guilted into going down. all i can say is that once is more than enough. i was so scared that i almost cried when they tried to convince me to go down. and when it was all over with, i almost threw up. i just don't see the thrill. i guess i'm a different sort of adrenaline junky. you know. the kind that gets really excited when the new sedaris book comes out. yeah sad i know. but at least i don't die that way.

i was completely exhausted after spending 7 hours outside in the freezing southwest ohio air, so i went to bed at 10:30 last night, and didn't wake up until 1:30 today. i think that it would have been more amazing if i had actually slept the entire time...that would have been amazing.

speaking of amazing. i got to talk to all of my family on the phone today. that was a delightful surprise. i'm so happy that my grandparents are recovering well, and they'll be coming home next saturday...and grandpa got up out of his bed and walked to wheel chair with only the aid of a walker! he hasn't done that in a really long time! amazing! cory called me today too. he said that he and carry would be coming by huntington on their way out to vegas, and wanted to visit. too bad i'm going to be home for spring break when they leave. but cory said that we might be able to meet in toledo for dinner before they leave...that would be fantastic cause i haven't seen that stinkin kid since christmas, and if he moves to vegas i'll never get to see him. that and i'd kind of like to meet carry.

i think the most exciting news of the weekend came when i talked to dad on the phone. he told that for my birthday (in september) he was going to buy me a plane ticket to vegas so i could see cory and carry!!! i'm so excited about that. that is perhaps the best birthday present that i could ever think of. that of course led to another phone call to cory to tell him...he was really excited too. so at some point in time around my 22 birthday i'm going to go to vegas for three or four days. i get to miss like three days of class...maybe gamble a little...see a show or two...and of course visit with my brother. what an amazing weekend.

ugh! part II

And they're back...said the monkey when he had his balls reattached by the E.R. doc.

ugh!

And they're off....said the monkey when he got his balls caught in the lawn mower.