sometimes i just need to listen to hard music really loud

i don't understand why people say what they do. it's good to know that if i'm ever seeking freedom of any kind, that i'm a sinful slut who is demon possessed and going to hell. good to know. i get so sick and tired of people copping out when they try to help others. i'm so tired of people standing in front of me, pointing out everything that is wrong, and not giving me an ounce of help. yeah that's a good plan. i'm just going to stand at the top of the well that the little baby fell into, and point out every wrong move he made that landed him there, but i'm not going to throw him a rope or call for help. no. he's at the bottom of that well, well golly he just needs to trust in jesus more! that will fix everything! oh and you have a good time rotting down there! see ya in hell! i'm so annoyed. it's good to know that i spend 23 thousand dollars a year to hear this kind of advice. i'm tired of christians being fake. i'm tired of sunday school answers and women of faith praise songs. i'm tired of it all. sometimes i just want to get away. to find it on my own. to take my time to see what is out there. oh wait, that's seeking freedom. no i will fail. that's right i forgot. i guess someone just needs to rebuke my demons, so i can watch the pigs fall off of the cliff. damn.