yeah that's what you thought i would do, but i didn't and now you don't know what to think!

my hands are green and i feel like the jolly green giant.
there is a dead bug on my shirt, i'm not sure how i should feel about that.
its been such a long day, and i'm exhausted. but i don't want to go to bed.
i get to sleep in tomorrow...i'm really looking forward to that.
things are better. that's pretty amazing because i didn't realize that things were bad.
but they were. and now its better. and i know how to act. and i know how to be.
and i can be me. and talk. and not feel uncomfortable. and that's good.
it rained all day. i can't imagine what it would be like to live in a place where it rained all week.
not like normal rain, but like the down pour kind. that would be weird.
i feel pointless right now. like i'm wasting time.
and i am.
but i guess that's what i do best.
perhaps.
on to something bigger and better. i wish i knew what that was. perhaps in a year.
i've been asked that question like ten times this week. that what are you doing next year question.
i wish i knew.
it would make life so much easier. but i guess that's not really how things work.
and i guess i should just be happy that i have an idea of what i would prefer doing.
and now worry so much about the fact that i don't actually know what i'm going to do.
i've come to the realization that i can not delegate. i don't really know what that has to do with the aforementioned thought.
but there it is. out there for all of the world to see.
i can't delegate. maybe people have known this about me for sometime now. i wish i had.
i don't really like it. i think i need to work on that. hmm, that was a slight case of deja vous. odd. this is a retarded post.
i don't like it. i'm thinking about deleting it. but if i deleted it then i would want to type another one.
but it is already late. and i don't want to spend anymore time doing that if i don't have to.
i guess i could just put a warning at the top of this post. something to the effect of.
::::WARNING::::--dinosaurs will eat your face if you read this.
or
::::WARNING::::--i'm an idiot and blabber on about a bunch of crap that really serves no purpose. if i were you i would just avoid this all together.
and who knows. maybe i will title it that. but i probably won't. i'll probably name this like the pot bellied propose on wheels or something like that. cause i never title things like i should. i wish my creativity was back. too bad i guess. i guess that just means that you get all this crap instead of all the things i could be typing that would mean so much more to you. oh well.