an excerpt from carla's paper.

"they're a picture perfect family (just a little uglier than normal)"

i'm suffering

from....idon'twanttodomyhomeworkitis.
Symptoms:
A sudden increase in cleaning.
The intense desire to write a novel.
Sore index finger from surfing the net.
A bruised forehead from repeated smashes to a hard surface.

Remedy:
An all nighter.

great.

nostalgia

my entry from exactly one year ago today.

that's right
here's a something i said recently:
"I'm a recluse.......a recluse and PROUD OF IT!"

funny how things never really change. just this year i said:
"i think i'll just become a hermit, and live in a cave in the woods. that way i can make friends with all of the woodland creatures before i shoot them and skin them and make them in to a lovely stew."

apparently the only thing that has changed has been my desire to be funny. hmmm. i think i'm almost ok with that. just wait till next april 13. maybe something will be different then.

butt thumping...like tub thumping

someone should teach my roommate that if you don't fart your guts will EXPLODE!

my only rebuttal

i like to use swearsies

i will not.

i'm updating because she is forcing me to.
i have a gun at my head and a knife at my throat.
i need to write this crap other wise she will punch me in the face.
oh, oh, oh, i don't want to get punched in the face.

she told me to write that.
she sang it at me, and forced me to pen it.
but i will not.
i will not do something against my own will.
i will not.
i will not.
i will not.

april showers bring may flowers!

today was a beautiful day.
i planted flowers,
and took a nap,
and tied knots outside,
and played with kids,
and heard a band.
and realized that maybe my classes are a little different than most.
and maybe my job is a little more relaxed than most.
and maybe i like it a whole lot more!

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i think i'm suffering from senioritis. i'm only a junior.
i just want to be done.
to have a job.
to have a career.
to move out of indiana.
to move out of ohio.
to move away from michigan.
to live in washington.
to live in oregon.
or the napa valley.
or colorado.
or new york.
or maine.
or Massachusetts.
or new hampshire.
or.
or.
or
or
or
or.

over heard at the salon last night...

my name is francesco. i like to wear tight pants and saunter.

brain farts and senior moments

i think i did something dumb. but i can't remember. but i think i did. i mean there is proof that a wrong doing occurred. and my name is attached to it. but i don't know what i did. i don't remember. not at all. maybe my subconscious has blocked it out. maybe it was so offensive that i don't even want to remember it. it makes me want to cry. maybe i'm being framed. it's sad that i don't remember. it's sad that no one has really said that i did something wrong. but i saw the receipt. it's there. in blue and yellow. but i don't remember. and now i feel dumb. and evil. and my stomach is churning. and my heart is burning. but i don't know why. i don't want to cry, it's dumb. i'm sorry to you that i did something dumb to. i can honestly say i didn't mean it. and that i don't remember it.

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ani defranco singing When Doves Cry is a tragedy. i cringe more when she sings it than i do when i hear prince. i think that the barenaked ladies maybe the only band that i have ever heard perform it well. very well in fact.

good mood catalysts

-the shins
-ani defranco
-eisley
-bright eyes
-saturdays

i guess today has the makings of a very good day!

a poem

happy freakin day...i'm outta here next may!

down hill

6 weeks left. sounds so completely strange. i can't believe that this year is almost over. advising is this week. registration next. craziness. 6 weeks and then maybe only two semesters instead of three, and then i'm done. done with college. a college grad. strange. i feel like i'm still a freshman. only i don't feel like a freshman at all. i sort of feel like i've wasted this experience called college, just because i don't do normal college things. weird. crap. gotta type a paper. even though i've been at this thing for three years, for some reason i still resist the need to do homework. i should definitely stop that if i'm going to graduate a semester early. next year will be crazy. i will work and i will study and i will sleep. and that will be all. blah. but i'll graduate. and maybe, hopefully get a job somewhere that i like, doing what i want. that's the goal right? to be marketable? well...here's to marketability!

no work for six days!!!!!

another day over...well techinically i suppose, but i don't actually plan on sleeping for a while. i finally get to go home tomorrow, and i'm looking forward to it....that's a surprise. it feels like spring break is finally starting! i'm pretty excited about this weekend actually...getting my hair cut and re-colored on thursday...that's always fun. and i'm supposed to meet my big bro in toledo for dinner. one last dinner before he moves to vegas on friday. even though i don't get to see him much now, i'm really going to miss him when he's all of the way across the country, instead of just across the state line! i get to hang out with em this weekend too! i don't see her near enough...makes me kind of sad that we're going in such completly different directions, but that's ok...at least i know where to find her and lee! alright, i suppose i should go finish cleaning the apartment...i only started it on sunday...i think i've lost all motivation. maybe i'll get a second wind sometime tonight...that usually happens around 2 or so....that would be amazing, then i could be like a super cleaning tornado. i guess for now i'll just have to settle for being a sloth...that's always fun!

ah...spring break!

although i wouldn't like to admit it, this break has been relatively relaxing...and the apartment is starting to look squeaky clean! i think that everyone should spend four days by themselves, you'll discover just how creative you can be! i think i have just enough time to squeeze in another movie before i go to work today...hmmm what shall it be. i'm sort of in the mood for eulogy, but i watched that yesterday....maybe garden state that always makes me happy....or amelie.... or mambo italiano...or one of the other two hundered movies we have....hmm...decisions, decisions!

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i think i might be a bitch...oh wait i can't say that, can i? shit...now i'm going to hell.

mwhahahaha!

is it bad that i'm gambling on campus?...and what have i bet on?....A RING DOWN!...how sad is that. that we have come to the point where we can practically pick who the newly engaged college student is...and what did we bet? a $10 CD...here's hopin for maroon 5!

i'm loving it!

...this weather that is.

i got a beautiful feeling, everythings going my way...

i started off the day in a good mood. a yay-its-saturday-and-i-don't-have-to-work-or-do-anything-and-my-roommates-are-gone-so-i-could-run-around-in-my-underwear-or-a-beaver-costume-and-no-one-would-notice sort of mood.

it was then down graded to an eh mood.

and has just recently bottomed out at a ah crap sort of mood. a ah-crap-a-big-semi-just-hit-me-in-the-face-and-then-i-turned-around-to-get-out-of-the-way-and-a-sea-gull-craped-on-my-head-and-then-in-a-bout-of-anger-i-decided-to-shoot-the-sea-gull-which-somehow-morphed-into-a-small-child-and-now-i-must-spend-the-rest-of-my-life-in-jail sort of mood.

sadness.

its almost over!!!

such a long freaking week. two exams and a paper. not to mention classes and working till 7:30 so far every night this week. i'm completely exhausted! i think that i just might go to bed...BEFORE 9:30!!!!!