drained.

i'm tired. i feel useless. underappreciated. and it's only day two. i guess that to some extent i had sort of expected this. but not really. i didn't think that it would actually be like this. hmmm. press on. keep going. its only day two of week one. its still just new. its not everyone. is it? i don't think so. tomorrow will come. and today will end. and it will be better. it has to be right? i don't feel like myself. i think i started to be me. but now i'm too afraid. too unsure. what if i'm wrong? am i a fraud? i hate this. i'm exhausted. its time for dinner. then on to another thing. and another. and another. then tomorrow. and the morning. and more feeling like crap for about four hours. i need strength Lord.